Another thing that I would do when I was a kid was sneak in to the living room in the middle of the night to watch the adult stuff on Cinemax because I was curious... I was otherwise very sheltered. But seeing all the fetish stuff, naughty sex stuff... I was intrigued. I couldn't help but kind of envy those people living so wild. I always craved a wild and different life then the type I grew up with. I was sheltered in a small town with Christians... so all of this is pure evil in their eyes... and that's why they don't know about ANY of my adult work. There is just no way it would end good if I told my family what I do. Just... no. The only family I have told is my sister who has a more open mind and is not religious, sometimes I wonder if she is holding back and not telling me what she really thinks. But she told me that she thought it was cool, so I'll believe her, she's usually very open with me. I realize I need a thick skin to work in the adult industry, but it's easier said then done. I still tend to take what people say, what strangers say to heart, I know I'm not supposed to but I can't really help it. It's something I have to train myself to do and I'm still learning.
For now I don't make enough money to survive, but I'm working towards a more secure future and the ability to live my life the way I want and I believe this is the best path there. I talked to people who have either made money in the middle of it or behind the scenes and there is big money to be made if you actually put work into it an believe in the goal. I think my hope is to someday just be behind the scenes.
And please people, I only have a puny 14 fans on MPP so far, that's nothing. Become my fan on MPP! It doesn't cost you anything. Also follow me on Twitter. All free, so no excuses. Help a girl out! :P
